Th joke of th day. Wallie & Chairy. Haha! Sorry i was really tired. If i dont do that, I would fall asleep mann. Even though Eddie Yeou is darn cool, haha. The topic today is not bad. The problem lies with us. Lol. I feel super lazy to blog mann.
GOODBYE! (:

I feel so damn sad. Entire day was studying of POM which i hav no interest to study at all. & thn comes th Szechuan Charity show tht made me cry like nobody's business. I hate th world. Why do we deserve to live in such am imperfect world? Mother Nature is not doing th right thing. Why is thr such disasters? Like earthquakes and cyclones. Why do we hav to die because of these natural disaters? Why must th children suffer? Why must th parents suffer? Why must thy go through pain and suffering, and yet thy cannot go through it tgt, because one is alive and th other dead. That totally should not be th way. I feel so damn gulity whn th organisations and the donation amounts stream through th bottom of th tv screen. I cant do much. All i did was just a call. I feel like slapping myself. Whts with all th crying? Whn i cant do anything abt it. I dont really like myself for being sympathetic. But thts me. ): I cant change. I was waiting to see Living Faith Church passed by th tv screen, but I only see New Creation Church and another one which I cant rem. I wna make a diff. But how? Im so freaking sad now tht i dont even feel like reading my POM notes. Or doing anything. I just want to stone. Everybody is so troubled over their life. I am too. With th pressure of many. Life is 50% tough and fun. But looking at Szechuan, life is 80% tough and 20% fun. I cant stand th sad sad stories I hear. It really made me so gulity for not knowing tht life in Singapore was so good. I cant imagine seeing my siblings under layers & layers of bricks. I cant imagine seeing my parents lying there under th collapsed buliding. I will break downnnnnnnn.

I rather its me who is trapped. Mother protects 3 to 4 month year old child. Found dead. Child found asleep soundly with a phone next to her. It was stated on th phone tht Mother will love you no matter wht. ):

If i can invent, I would invent smth tht would prevent earthquakes. Prevent cyclones, prevent all natural disasters. I hate th imperfect world. Its just so darn imperfect. The earth, stop playing games with us. You are ill, but we are worse. Have mercy on us.

Yawnnnn, im tired but happy! Haha. So much happened and I am glad it happened in a positive way. God really blessed me even though thr were a few anger managment problems. Thursday's muscle strain after plunging, gives me a super duper tough time to walk mann. Like this is th first time it happens on my calf. All these while it only happens to my arms. Haha. & ppor me gotta limp to Expo on Friday just to catch th Adidas sales. It wasnt tht bad actually. Except for th waiting part which got me rather annoyed but yes, im not petty and i forgive and forget. Haha. This reminds me of today whn Josephine said tht self praise is international disgrace, which i totally beg to differ. Haha. :)
Me & Zhijun bought th same top fr Adidas and we decided to wear it on th same day so tht we can be twins for a day! :) Imagine how many twins i hav. Somehow related. Lol. :)
Like Liqing who likes th name Melissa. So she is my twin. Haha.
& Zhijun who is pretty simliar and we are gna get the same shirt, twins too!
Melody is MEL, just like me, twins!
Jolene is born 6 hours earlier than me, twins once agn!
HAHA. How many twins is tht? Sounds like a quartet or quintet. Lol.
After Adidas, & much thought put inot, we decided to go eat at Changi Airport Terminal 3! We went to Popeye's chicken & biscuit shop and realised thy dont sell spinach. Weirddddd. Why popeye thn. Haha. Thy even play Popeye's cartoons! :))
After tht, was studying time! Altho there were much distractions, I finished chapter 1! Yay. HAHA. :) & Aaron was like i cant study here! Haha, he was th one who suggested to study tgt. Lol. & thn we left. Not mentioning th parts whr thy wanted me to get lost, made me laugh till i hit my head against th wall, ah nevermind. Haha. :)

Saturday is always GREAT. Because i get to see my twinnnn. :)) Haha. Champion eagles is really making my life different. Not only because of th pple thr, but Lord, you too over thr. I hav always enjoyed their accompany. Unless of course, whn thy teased. & thy are really nice to volunteered to help me carry my bag, knowing tht i am limping. But yeah, altho I know thy hav some other intentions. Lol. With them, time passes. And I think Daniel's preaching is so darnnnnn cool. Imagine me doing tht. I really hope so mann. It;s my only way to serve the Lord. I cant sing well. I am not music-oriented. Well, I can dance. But yeah, I can speak well. So i hav always thought preaching would be th best way for me to serve. But, I cant really pray well. Like wht Daniel had said, its self-consciousness. But I would try harder. & I know, Jesus, would help me. Currently now, I think I really need help in studies. Mine ICAs are next week and i wna do well mann.
I seriously wna study but it seems like i cant bring my body to th study table. Shit. Howhowhow. I gotta mug reallll hard tmrw! ):
Lord, guide me.

KILL HER. !@#$%.

Somebody tell me how to handle her. She stress us like nobody's business. I cant take it anymore luh. ):

Monday was Vesak Day. I spent th entire day doing just th first sub-question of th stupid IT report. Save me. Urgh. :/ Im so glad th whole entire thing is over. Not entirely, actually. I still have to see her face every Thurs. I realise Thurs is th worst day of th week. 2 teachers, both SUCKED. Big time. BUT I still prefer th first one. Actually both isnt tht bad. Perhaps i was facing too much pressure at tht time. But she seriously is getting on my nerves! ): Why do i have to this module in th first place.

Tues was one LONG day. So is Wed. Just because of th report. Can you imagine. & of course, with all th makeup lessons. Sigh, im tired. Beat. I skipped lifesaving on Wed. Imagine tht, just because of th report. I seriously will commit suicide if she says our report is bad. Please, Lord. Tell me what to do.

I came to realise that I love your presence more than you.

Huanqing, I agree with you mann. Even though no one knows who exactly I yearn for.

No one shall ever know, I guess.

I cast it to th Lord. He will decide for me.

Shit HTML. Like i seriously dno anything. Th teacher might be really demanding by giving us a test immediately aft wht she taught but i just dont understand, why i found her funny, whn she said tht me & Zhijun kept talking in her class. Haha. Its suppose to be a scolding but i find it funny. Or you can say, i meant it as a joke. Lol. :) Thurs was HECTIC. Right aft trying to complete the HTML challenge, to prove tht im attentive in her class even though i might be talking, I gotta rush off for trng which starts at 6. I am a really determined person so i didnt give up trying the challenge until 620pm, and i know i can never complete it no matter what, i got my bag and dashed to th pool. Haha. Bless me, Uncle Louis' bike broke down and he arrived at 7pm. Haha he doesnt know im late. Lol. :) Trng was tougher thn usual. I felt th Chem Jiao Lian times coming back when I swam. Haha. I paced with Hong Koon, th only person I could pace at least. Hah. :) Thn later, i realised more abt th so-called taking sides thingy, fake backaches, uhm and badmouthing. Lol. I donht care luhhhhhhhhhh. HAHA. :))




Friday was ICA 1 for Public Speaking. Everybody were busy practising during lunch break except me. Haha. Was too engrossed in Michael Jackson's dancing! I mean, he dance like :)). I would marry any guy who dances like him, or CAN dance like him haha. Who cares if he likes little oys and is a psycho? He has a great flair for dancing luh. & i think LIME is really mean to compare Ah Meng with Britney. And th worst of all is tht Ah meng won! :/ Where's th justice? Britney is human with a huge talent in singing. Ah Meng only entertains those who actually visits th zoo whn thy hav nth to do. Please mann. I bought LIME & Teenage on Friday and was practically reading it, so yeah, i didnt practice my speech. I dont see th need to actually, bcos i hav practised enough th day before. & Im sure God will make sure i do well haha. :) & as a matter of fact, I did well! :) I went last, I felt honoured & I felt tht im th scorer in Jesus' name! :))




Saturday was one tiring day. Slept till arnd 11am. Thn woke up and finish up Econs. I think i finished POM & AFA on Friday night. Haha. Thn headed for church. Had BS with Josephine and realised tht im gna learn how to play a guitar in no time. Haha. To serve you, my Lord, I hope i wont embarrass myself and th guitar. Lol. :) Went off earlier because i decided to hav dinner with my family. Was pretty devastated to hear tht Liqing would hav problems coming for service aft this Sat. ): Dont leave me twin! Haha. While waiting for my family to get me at AMK Hub, I was so bored. Just walking around aimlessly. At tht time, I kinda realised how company can be so important. Seriously. :)




Sunday was beach day! At East Coast! Thn we had dinner!

Had our very first ABC meeting ytd on MSN. & realised tht th world is so darn imperfect. It just made me do th wrong things. Urgh. :/ but at least, i really found th friends i wanted. Haha go wild mann! I dont really care if i can actually socialise or make friends or be popular. Of course, if im not popular, i dont feel too good but i wont go th extreme of feeling depressed. I mean, i only see them twice a week, having of not having friends there doesnt seem to such a big difference. If thy really do hate me, im seriously fine with it. As long as you dont disrupt my trng. Because if you do, its a different story. I really mean it. Haha.

My Chairperson and Vice-chairperson are so worried with this bad thing gng on. & thy didnt want to get me involved. But cmon, life is like this! Haha. If you're good to me, im good to you! I dont care if many pple hate you or whatsoever, i dont mind being hated if i can spend quality time with pple i feel comfortable hanging out with. Haha i really dont care. So Mel & Jo, dont feel bad mann. Haha. For those who werent so close to me, i dno if you want to or not, but i dont mind making more friends. There's only problem & tht is im shyyyy. So approach me first haha. It's my nature. Sorry. :)

Today was th sleepiest day. Lol. I so want to sleep during Econs lesson. & tht stupid Boon put down my wake up call. Serve him right for being late. Lol. & i was thinking if th students of NYP can stop teasing th good teachers. Like Mr Eddie Yeou. :) Like he is so nice, so dont bully him haha. & there is lifesaving tonight which i dont feel like gng at all. Lol.

I SERIOUSLY FEEL LIKE SLEEPING.

& im sad why we all seemed to be like strangers whn we were all once very very close confidantes & friends? Im losing touch of th real thing of friendship. Urgh. Let's see if i can post any retarded pictures.

Yay, first retarded picture up. Haha. This is Slimy fr Sesame Street. Lol. Im being really lame here. Shit.

What Guys Think of Your Pigtails or Braids...

Trendy, wild, and unconventional. You're a handful and it's hard to predict your behavior. But he loves that!

Your Spelling is Good

You got 9/10 correct. Your spelling is generally pretty decent. You are prone to a few mistakes, but the mistakes you make are pretty forgivable.

Your Preppy Name Is...

Loomis Eckley Payne the Fifth But most people know you as Gigi

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to relate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"Tell them I said something."

You Are 68% Sexy

Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room. You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing.

Your Celebrity Style Twin is Jessica Simpson

Flirty, feminine, and fun.

What Your Red Outfit Means

You're bold and risk taking when it comes to style. You are proud of who you are. It doesn't matter what others think. A complete flirt, men are drawn to your confidence. Designer match: Betsey Johnson Signature accessory: A studded leather hobo bag

You Are Balanced - Realist - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally. You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go. Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control. Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow. You are a realist when it comes to luck. You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random. You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you... But you do your best to try to make your own luck. You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order. You realize that working the system does get you further. You know who to defer to and who to control. When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from The Empire Strikes Back

"Captain, being held by you isn't quite enough to get me excited."

Your Uncommon Name Is:

Gilberta Cinderella Murrah

Your Life Path Number is 9

Your purpose in life is to make the world better You are very socially conscious and a total idealist. You think there are many things wrong with the world, and you want to fix them. You have a big idea of how to world could be, and you'll sacrifice almost anything to work towards this dream. In love, you can easily see the beauty in someone else. And you never cling too tightly. You are capable of great love, but it's hard for you to focus your love on one person or relationship. You have a lot of outward focus, and you tend to blame the world for your failures. You are often disappointed by the realities of life - it's hard for you to accept the shortcomings of the world.

Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Your Flip Flops Say About You

You are an outdoorsy person. You feel most comfortable in nature. Beautiful scenery and good weather always brighten up your day. Being outside allows you to feel calm and connected to the world. Problems don't seem so big when you realize how small you are in the scheme of things. Your ideal warm weather place: Costa Rica

Hey ima back! :) Haha. After Friday's impromptu speech, im kinda afraid of speeches now haha. But i still enjoy talking of course. :) & definitely giving speeches about something I like is no biggie dealll. Haha. Saturday was one tiring day for me mann. I had to tutor Boon Statistics at Centrepoint Plaza at 12pm. Th worst thing was he understood it so quickly tht we went on to Econs and realised th questions for econs were like, so difficult. :/ Haha. Thn Aaron pop-ed up with a question on MSN, asking if Boon is a REAL gay! Haha. :) Boon, who asked you to call him Darling? Lol.

So Boon decided to continue with his Gay personality and lied to Aaron. Haha. & i dno how Zhijun & me get involved in th end too! Lol. I only managed to tell Aaron tht Boon was faking whn he went to get a drink haha. Thn Aaron got so confused because he doesnt know if th one talking to him is me, or Boon! Lol. It was just one funny scenario. Lol. :) Aft tht, I went for Bible studies with Lynnette, Liqing, Alvin & Crystal! And nonetheless, our BS teacher, Miss Teo! Haha, alright, Josephine. :) We learnt about daily prayers. :)

Pastor John's son, Jonathan preached tht day! About faith! :) He sound weird, but yeah, we all know he tried his best! At least he spoke, unlike Jason who was frightened by th stage. Lol. :) Thn we went for dinner & catch Iron man! I think Iron man is darn cool, i mean his suit. Haha, not th guy please. The suit was like, amazing luh! Haha. IMAFAN. :) Haha.

& i dno how long th teasing is gna last, but i sure hope it wil stop soon. Aft this movie thingy, i dont think we have to work tgt agn haha. & im so in deep shit. I just cant stop laughing. Shit.

Sunday was tiredddd. I went to get my formal clothes, did my econs & redo it on Mon, did my speech outline until super late & thn sleep & hav troubles waking up on Mon. ): Its not entirely a bad day actually, I had some really fun moments with my 3 sisters. I didnt know webcam was so hilarious! Haha! :)

This is th capabilites of webcam haha.

Monday's swimming trng is like. Hur, whats up with pple ther mann? Seriously, im puzzled too. Uncle Louis is right. Haha. I dont think you're acting, but neither do i pity you. First things first, why do your attitude change so fast? Like super duper fast luh. Shit luh, I dont want to badmouth but im seriously curious. Is wht Jolene said right? Seeking attention? But i wont seek attention by crying. Haha. Thts painful. Maybe by laughing nonstop lol. But i really couldnt help it ok. Im not seeking attention haha. & she made me felt so guilty, bcos i thought she knows im pissed with her by th fact tht she swam as if she wanted to block me on purpose. Like please. All i want to do is swim properly and get my PBs. You can criticise or condemn me, or stop me fr doing anything else except for TRNG. Whoever interrupts my trng will come to no good end. Haha. :) Anyway, i just cant mix. So most probably, I wouldnt be gng for th Monday gathering. bcos i just hav this feeling i wont enjoy. I know it too well. Haha. I would rather stay at home and study. Tht week are full of ICAs mann! I kinda feeling stress now. Haha. I dont have to worry tht much if i do my part actually. But th problem is tht i havent done my part haha! I shall first pray to Jesus, to make me study better thn pray tht my friends will do well too, & we'll all excel tgt! Of course, i want to be top so tht i can prove tht God is awesome! But first, i think i really need to study! I cant afford to lose to th other 2 A students! Plus thy are th A* star couple, their combined power will beat me flattt. Haha.

Haha. Funny day. Slapped Boon. Picked up his speech. Lol. Aaron & Zhijun. Hot topic now! Haha. SW is just so fun! :) Who is th funniest person alive? Melissa Choo DUHH! :)

Jennifer can vouch for tht. Comm skills lesson is alwys tht exciting. & wht's th feeling of being woo-ed?

First time. Haha. It feels goodddd. Lol. BUT,

I AM SHY.

Like shit, why?! He asked for my number, I should just say okay right. Why did i turn away blushing? Just making new friends :) I just dont understand why am i like this. Lol. And tdy agn, i just answered him lol. I should thanked him for telling me th clues for th quiz luh. Shit. & th worst thing is tht he knows my name, but i dno his. Haha. Nice guy i can tell. I want friends fr other courses & CCAs too. Haha. But just curious, why malay guy haha?

Zhijun, who should pay the $6,250? Haha :))

Thanks for hitting me haha. Go create Facebook mann, Aaron's rumoured wife. Haha.

& dont try to push it to me, it wont work & it will never work. Haha.

I feel OUT. Like really out of th situation mann. The place doesnt suit me. Im beginning to feel th boredom. Nah not th boredom, but th kind of pple. Ya i think its th character. We just dont match. When you are not as 'fast' as them, you are left out. When you dont take th intiative, you are even left out. When you are shy and you dont mix, you feel even MORE left out. Wierdddd. I tried. I DID. I went dinner with them. But we dont click. Im not badmouthing. But there's this smth tht separates us. Like idnowhtstht. Haha. I cant enter their gossip circle. Their comments on guys. & th guys in thr, really hav th initaitive mann. Th entire team gives me th feeling of more like a social gathering kind of thing, thn swimming trng. Haha i know you hav to socialise, but why are relationship rumours coming in? I feel funny, thts it. Its just not me. I hav a feeling my life thr would not be as fulfilling and memorable like in th past, with jiaolian. I miss my swimming peeps :) Like serious. Get in contact mann! No one bothers to talk to me. I feel saddd. Haha. My once-very-wonderful-swimmates. You all switched clubs, but you are still beautiful. So lets get in contact & visit jiaolian? Can? Dont dump us for better friends. We are the bestest freinds. See us like you want us to see you. Not public enemies. I want to go back to th past whr club trng with jiaolian and peeps bring back so many wonderfull memories. Now tht i feel out of place, I need those memories. I think, no. Should erase them. It only makes me feel worse luh. Sigh, when can i see jiaolian & peeps agn? )):

Thanks Sarah. Haha. I dont know why you tell me tht. I assume you read th previous post i guess. Haha :) This has been a really hectic week. But i did enjoy. A little. Haha, shant elaborate much on being teased and becoming th entertainment committee chairman. Hur.

School was alright, not much of a problem after having Yeo Cheng to tutor me on Monday. Thanks :) Plus th accounting teacher really made great efforts to make sure we know everything abt journal entries. Haha i understand now. I was like practically worried if i would catch th fever bug too. I didnt have a long good sleep last night. I kept waking up. And this happens to be th

symptom of having fever, for me at least. But i was blessed. I didnt catch tht. Lol. & I am happy! Haha :) Training with NYP's swimteam is weirdd. I just feel weird. Perhaps i just cant mix. We seemed so different. Like i dno how to explain. But i know it, i cant mix with them. And its weird. Lol :)

Lord, thanks for healinggg.

Family crisis. Lord, i need you badlyyy. Even though i know you are right beside me. My family is down with the worst thing - Fever. And all but me. Urgh. I know i am blessed but its worst to see everybody sick except me. Father, bless my loved through me alright.

And Lord, i seriously need help in my studies mann. Especially in IWT & AFA. Ima so stressed out by these two modules.

Father, I pray hard. I do. No worries.

Hey. Whats up with all th stress? Life is hectic luh, who say it isnt? ): The past few days were so tough. Because of labour day and makeup lessons. Euww. I am getting to hate tht word. I hav no time for group work and th guards in th sch are so dont-know-anything. Th worst thing is tht we believed thm. Sobs.

Ending up to reach sch under th scorching sun, and realised I can never enter th school on Public hols. What a different Labour day i haddddd. ):

There are so many projects, so many group work, I am so getting stress. Urgh. I wna spend quality time with my family but i cant. ): Plus both my parents are down with fever just ytd. Lord, save me mannnnnn.