I feel OUT. Like really out of th situation mann. The place doesnt suit me. Im beginning to feel th boredom. Nah not th boredom, but th kind of pple. Ya i think its th character. We just dont match. When you are not as 'fast' as them, you are left out. When you dont take th intiative, you are even left out. When you are shy and you dont mix, you feel even MORE left out. Wierdddd. I tried. I DID. I went dinner with them. But we dont click. Im not badmouthing. But there's this smth tht separates us. Like idnowhtstht. Haha. I cant enter their gossip circle. Their comments on guys. & th guys in thr, really hav th initaitive mann. Th entire team gives me th feeling of more like a social gathering kind of thing, thn swimming trng. Haha i know you hav to socialise, but why are relationship rumours coming in? I feel funny, thts it. Its just not me. I hav a feeling my life thr would not be as fulfilling and memorable like in th past, with jiaolian. I miss my swimming peeps :) Like serious. Get in contact mann! No one bothers to talk to me. I feel saddd. Haha. My once-very-wonderful-swimmates. You all switched clubs, but you are still beautiful. So lets get in contact & visit jiaolian? Can? Dont dump us for better friends. We are the bestest freinds. See us like you want us to see you. Not public enemies. I want to go back to th past whr club trng with jiaolian and peeps bring back so many wonderfull memories. Now tht i feel out of place, I need those memories. I think, no. Should erase them. It only makes me feel worse luh. Sigh, when can i see jiaolian & peeps agn? )):